If I Can’t Win Lyrics

[Verse]
See the shadows over there
When the dim lamp light hits your chin
These are thoughts I never say
I make them hide and go away
Overlooking what I see
In the past got the best of me
Orange curtains and pale blue walls
If I can't win I'm gonna lose it all
I talk to my cigarettes

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The most they listen is ten minutes
But I'll have another one
It's a new pack so they can't run
Sometimes people walk away
When they overhear what I say
It's just the same old call
If I can't win I'm gonna lose it all
Take a walk around this room
And the gifts that you took too soon
Too many memories
Drags out the worst in me
Saw picture book on the shelf
Was alone so I helped myself
Send it up and watch it fall
If I can't win I'm gonna lose it all
Send it up and watch it fall
If I can't win I'm gonna lose it all