Hit The Switch Lyrics

im staring out into that vacuum again
from the back porch of my mind
the only thing thats alive, im all there is
and i start attacking my vodka
stab the ice with my straw
my eyes have turned red as stoplights
you seem ready to walk
you know ill call you eventually
when i wanna talk, until then youre invisible

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cause theres this switch that gets hit
and it all stops making sense
and in the middle of drinks
maybe the fifth or the sixth
im completely alone at a table of friends
i feel nothing for them
i feel nothing, nothing...

well i need a break from the city again
i think ill ship myself back west
i've got a friend there
she says, "hey anytime"
unless that offers expired
i have been less than frequent
shes under no obligation
to endulge every whim
and im so ungreatful, i take
she gives and forgives and i keep forgetting it

and each morning she wakes
with a dream to describe
something lovely that bloomed
in her beautiful mind
i say, "i'll trade you one
for two nightmares of mine,
i have somewhere i die
i have somewhere we all die"

im thinking of quitting drinkin again
i know ive said that a couple of times
and im always changing my mind
well i guess i am
but theres this burn in my stomach
and theres this pain in my side
and when i kneel at the toilet
and the mornings clean light
pours in through the window
sometimes i pray i dont die
im a goddamn hypocrite

but then night rolls around and it all starts makin sense
there is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live
and so i do what i do, and at least i exist
what could mean more than this?
what would mean more, mean more?