Lost Myself in Search of You Lyrics

I was holding you so tight and you were holding me
So wrapped up in the moment I was feeling such security
And the first few weeks felt just like heaven,
but I never really seemed to get that high
So now I sit here laughing at the time that past me by.
Its times, times like these, when I'm down on my knees begging
please, oh please don't go, please don't go
As you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were
through
And as you slipped away
I found I lost myself in search of you

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I found I lost myself in search of you, search of you
I was holding you tight and you were holding him
But now the only time I can hold you is in my mind
And that never seem to fill me up inside
Oh and yes I felt lonely and yes I felt a need
And you seemed to feel it necessary to make me see
That I was wrong and you were right
And that all my attempts were in vain
But I was pretty sure you'd turn around and want me back
again
And as you slipped away I couldn't admit that we were
through
And as you slipped away I found I lost myself in search you
I found I lost myself in search you, search of you,
always in search of you
I was holding you so tightly when you needed help
I guess insecurities catch up to you when you're lying to
yourself
But I never lie when I told you all that you could be
But it was no use, you never really ever listened to me
I was holding you so tight but now I've let you go.