Troublesome Lyrics

All this could be, how can I decide? Call it all losses, we'll try it on for size
And how can I believe I can be so brave? And I can never stop, I can never save
Someone is searching, calling your name, wanting and willing are one in the same
With all things aside, I'm calm when I confide, you're always in my thoughts, my stomach tied in knots
These days become the week, these weeks become our lives, hanging overhead, uncertain I arrive
It's open and closing, closing again, startled and stunning but I can pretend

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And I've seen troublesome and I dig myself a grave and I'll be done

And how could I believe I could ever change? The burden that you've built, I've rearranged
Kool-Aid and Camels standing in line, a bottle of something for $5.49
No one can say it, know that you lied, there's nothing beneath me, I can't decide
Is everything escape? Is everything alone? Afraid to be awake, afraid to use the phone
They're calling and calling and calling again, "Why don't you answer?" "Where have you been?"
Pick up this once, just please, pick up this once for me, bleed to death with first aid kit,
we cut our hands as we open it
Nothing will help us, nothing will do, nothing has meaning, nothing but you

And I've seen troublesome and I dig myself a grave and I'll be done
With a call they've sent for you, with heads bowed and I dreamt what I can do, no shame now

And mother dreams for you, fathers words are few, hope that they can have me, dreamt what I can do
It's all in the dark, it's all that I despise

Bleed to death, the first aid kit, we cut our hands as we open it
Nothing will help us, nothing will do, nothing has meaning, nothing but you

And I've seen troublesome and I dig myself a grave and I'll be done
With a call they've sent for you, with heads bowed, never dreamt what I can do, no shame now